Afterward:  I realized again that the task of completing the paper and documenting it would be beyond my means.  I knew that if I were to continue, something else would have to happen.  This book happened, but it is not the book I had in mind.

Melville said, about Moby Dick, I think, but I have misplaced the quotation:  "This is but a draft, ay, but a draft of a draft.  O, Time, Strength, Cash and Patience."